embrace

19/05/2015 3:08am

thank you father for your love for me
though i am undeserving, though i have nothing
thank you father for your grace
i am forgetful, i am selfish
you remain faithful, you love wholeheartedly
i fall away time and time again
but you come each time to pull me up once more
because you are love
and with your love, i am saved

father you are holy
set apart and perfect, righteous and just
you are most creative, creation testifies
you are sovereign, you are almighty
in your hands hold everything, anything
i am but a speck, a human
sinful, common, short-sighted
open my eyes and help me see things
through your eyes

father i am a vessel
fill me with your spirit
fill me with your love
fill me with knowledge and wisdom
fill me with fear
fill me up that i may be used to fill others too

walk with me father
hold my hand and guide me to your path of righteousness
pull me back with your rod when i drift away
and teach me how to be your child

jiak liao bee x child of God

i haven't actually had a decent blogpost up since like 5000 years ago so to my imaginary friends billy and bobby:

I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL!

DONE!
DONE!
DONE!

(maybe i'll blog about school and 2014 soon! lol talk about fast)

and now i have fallen into the life of a JLB (jiak liao bee) as said by my friend si xuan

jiak liao bee

(jia'h leow bee)
Hokkien phrase literally meaning to "eat rice till it's finished". It describes something as useless or a big waste.
"You spend so much money on tuition and still always fail your exam? You damn jia'h leow bee!"

 

typical JLB

The JLB life can be customised.

In Jodie's case, it revolves around....

1. Korean dramas

a) Pinocchio

Going to watch the last episode after I type this up. Hohoho

edit: i watched it!!!

Personal opinion: This show is pretty amazing. Definitely the best drama the writer has come up with.. I Hear Your Voice and Dream High was written by the writer of Pinocchio as well but those were pretty boring to me - either a lack of plot or too draggy. 

Pinocchio however, is pretty much maybe a 8/10 for me. (That's pretty awesome)

Sorry, I didn't explain the story. Go on dramawiki or something.

b) Healer

*crying*

I don't even know what to say about my obsession with Healer (& JCW) but oijgsodfjsod!!!

TBH the beginning is so draggy (I get it, they want to build the characters up) but that doesn't last too long before everything just blows your mind and 8ASHUFIJOSDFM(*W!!!!!

IDFJOSD!?!?!

U GET IT?? 

Ya, go on dramawiki again. 

2. Excessive lepaking anywhere and everywhere

 87.% of the time at home with gramps watching crazy korean soap dramas (I KILL U I WANT THE COMPANY OH WAIT MY SON IS MY ENEMY'S ADOPTED SON kind of thing) but also chats on food, life, gods and God (or er light hearted arguments?)

 went to bkk to eat sleep

 got a new house with Cheryl to just nua and do nothing
(jk we're actually in muji - free living room for you to use!)

 catching up with people i love also, of course
(This is Mrs Koh! My Primary 6 form teacher)

TBH I don't lepak at home too much cus I find energy in people and my mum calls me 'all rounded' so I need to go out and walk. 

My workout atm is just cardio - walking around orchard (as depicted above, this was with prawn)

(1000% effective her fitbit said we walked a solid 10km for the least during our time there from 4pm)

(4.30. i was late.)

&

3. Baking

look at this! nestum cookies!

Alright I had better cookies but i don't have them on my computer - I only have photos taken on my phone camera on here, but not the ones on my whatsapp, vscocam etc. so no fancy shpancy photos of our choc chip chunk and gingerbread ones :'(

ATM we're fundraising for easter camp 2015 for OCF, and we're pretty much halfway to our goal. Praise be to God!

(also if anyone is intd in buying, i.e. billy n bobby contact me)

 

(also excessive money spending because i really don't see anything to wear for each day SOB and carousell SOB so addictive SOB)

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BUT you see, I'm not here to brag about my JLB life because it's nothing new and it's also nothing good. 

In a way, it's because even more than being a JLB I am a Christian. And...

Ephesians 5:1-20

¹ Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children ² and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

³ But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God’s holy people. ⁴ Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving. ⁵ For of this you can be sure: No immoral, impure or greedy person—such a person is an idolater—has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God.^{[a] 6} Let no one deceive you with empty words, for because of such things God’s wrath comes on those who are disobedient. ⁷ Therefore do not be partners with them.
⁸ For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light ⁹ (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) ¹⁰ and find out what pleases the Lord. ¹¹ Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. ¹² It is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. ¹³ But everything exposed by the light becomes visible—and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. ¹⁴ This is why it is said:

“Wake up, sleeper,
    rise from the dead,
    and Christ will shine on you.”

¹⁵ Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, ¹⁶ making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. ¹⁷ Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is. ¹⁸ Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit, ¹⁹ speaking to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord, ²⁰ always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

So here are some goals I am implementing for myself because there really is no time for me to keep being a JLB. In documenting this whoever reads this (billy, bobby) and myself are witness to the goals I want to make and I guess that makes everything more solid. Also I hope it is of some help to the other friends falling into the JLB life (I mean, how easy is it to live like this?)

Jodie's step-by-step to living wisely 

(for Jodie, Billy and Bobby too I guess)

1. KNOWING GOD PERSONALLY

How am I supposed to live as child(ren) of the light when I myself don't know the light?

How do I show others God's love when I myself don't know it enough?

Or Christ-likeness when I don't even know what Christ is like?

Honestly I've been struggling with QT because of this JLB lifestyle. If you noticed my JLB routine excludes sleep because I watch so much nonsense and waste so much time in the night I often sleep at ~ 5.30am, wake up in the morning (WELL 10 or 11 is still morning) and so times spent in silence end up as nap time.

TBH: Just today I had to slap myself several times reading my Bible Q_Q 

In the words of Jesus (to his disciples zzz-ing off) : Matthew 26:41

"Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak."

 So, dearest Jodie... 

Goal 1. KNOW HIS WORD, KNOW HIM
a) Keep up with the One Year Bible and do it everyday! Faithfully!

This is what I use, and I recommend this to the others as well. What better way to know more about our God than reading His word? The great thing about the One year Bible is that it has organised the Bible into 365 day readings, in which in a day we read approx 2 chapters of OT, 1 chapter of NT, 1 chapter of Psalms and 2 verses of Proverbs, taking approx. 15 - 20 minutes. 

I have been doing this since two years ago, but not too consistently. Reflecting back it really is essential to read the word knowing what it means to us, so for myself and whoever reading this (that's right, billy and bobby)

Hebrews 4:12

For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.

2 Tim 3:16-17

 All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work. 

 I'll read it faithfully. :)

Honestly though, I really thank God for this. 

Being able to read the OT I believe is especially important for all of us in an era where many choose to forsake it. You see, His story began in the beginning, right from Genesis. I won't go on about this, so 'Billy and Bobby', it's your own journey!

A tip when it comes to this if you don't have the actual one year bible in hard copy is to just get it from the bible app.. but the even better thing about this is that you are able to listen to the audio! 

 

b) Memorise memorise memorise

Okay so I have bipolar memory. Actually maybe it's pretty normal that it's pretty bad. I don't know.

Anyway. As before, the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, fore correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work.

The question is not why, but why not?

Jodie will endeavour to do this through actual palm cards. 

Goal 2. PRAY FAITHFULLY, PRAY TRULY

I think in the end it goes back to the first goal of knowing God, and then praying in the knowledge of how great our God is. Having been in a Christian family all my life, idk why but it is so easy to take my own prayers for granted, sometimes even others. Without realising our words become a routine, and then we are no longer praying faithfully but muttering mere words that really hold no value in the end. Or maybe it's just a common case in my life. I don't know.

A few verses that came into mind....

1 Samuel 16:7

But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."

Matthew 6:7

And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they  think they will be heard because of their many words.

 Thus the goal!

Was browsing through adam4d the other day and above was an advertorial for PrayerMate so I have just begun using it. It is just as important we keep our promises (hahahaha) and really pray for those around us, so PrayerMate helps keep us up with that. Not even that, but we are able to pray for situations around the world, and regarding our own walk. Quite a useful app I must say. Not that we are to be dependent on it, but it is good!

Goal 3. SLEEP EARLIER

lol

no but srsly, sleep is important

if not i'll be falling asleep at the most important times of the day!!!

and let us not abuse our bodies!

Anyway, if the post sounded out of sync by the second half of the second goal, it is because right now I am sleepy... goodnight internet.

(oops, took this a solid 10 years ago)

(ok maybe half a year ago)

(actually my next goal was to learn korean also)

i'll be back!

for now tho brb feels

perhaps i'll make good use of my holidays, a little bit on blogging

but how do i make good use of blogging? 

ok i will think and get back to y'all 

(and when i say y'all, i'm probably referring to imaginary friends milly and bobby. thanks both of you!)

sedikit saja!!!!

やばいなぁ！！

WACE is coming, WACE is coming, just four more months and I'll be seated in the exam room... WHATTT

You know what they say, better late than never..

JIAYOU JODIEEE!!!

あとすこし！！すこしだけ！！

(i probably have put these photo up before... once i clicked upload the first folder i found myself in was '0000' which was probably used for me to throw in photos into the blog...)

Isaiah 50:2-10

² When I came, why was there no one?
    When I called, why was there no one to answer?
Was my arm too short to deliver you?
    Do I lack the strength to rescue you?
By a mere rebuke I dry up the sea,
    I turn rivers into a desert;
their fish rot for lack of water
    and die of thirst.
³ I clothe the heavens with darkness
    and make sackcloth its covering.”

⁴ The Sovereign Lord has given me a well-instructed tongue,
    to know the word that sustains the weary.
He wakens me morning by morning,
    wakens my ear to listen like one being instructed.
⁵ The Sovereign Lord has opened my ears;
    I have not been rebellious,
    I have not turned away.
⁶ I offered my back to those who beat me,
    my cheeks to those who pulled out my beard;
I did not hide my face
    from mocking and spitting.
⁷ Because the Sovereign Lord helps me,
    I will not be disgraced.
Therefore have I set my face like flint,
    and I know I will not be put to shame.
⁸ He who vindicates me is near.
    Who then will bring charges against me?
    Let us face each other!
Who is my accuser?
    Let him confront me!
⁹ It is the Sovereign Lord who helps me.
    Who will condemn me?
They will all wear out like a garment;
    the moths will eat them up.

¹⁰ Who among you fears the Lord
    and obeys the word of his servant?
Let the one who walks in the dark,
    who has no light,
trust in the name of the Lord
    and rely on their God.
¹¹ But now, all you who light fires
    and provide yourselves with flaming torches,
go, walk in the light of your fires
    and of the torches you have set ablaze.
This is what you shall receive from my hand:
    You will lie down in torment.

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 currently: lots of things to do, doing nothing

90% of the time i often do things half-heartedly, and i suppose it is normal for most people..

but 

Colossians 3:23

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,

Are you putting in your best efforts in what you do?
Who are you trying to please when you carry out your tasks?

May we strive to do our best for the Lord!

:)

Colossians 3:12-17:

Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him.

It's been a tough day today!

I don't know what to share bye bye

heck blogging

i will be on hiatus as i reckon blogging is starting to feel like a chore for me now (that i don't even do)

so ya

let it die

i'll update it as and when.. and that's all i havve to say.

imma do well this year!! YERRRR

food hunt @ dhoby

HIIIIIIIIIII
WASSUPP
WADDUP
BURP

!!!!!!
so let me continue on my life in singapore!
as a singaporean, food plays a really big part in our lives..
so i got to go out w my sis, dorothy, qinyi and jesslyn to erm.. eat
..
for the whole day

isn't it great to be surrounded by food?
i did feel like puking from overeating today, but when you don't..
hehehe.

my sis and i woke up at 10.25 considering that our friend was coming over at 10.30.
i mean like why do we have to wait and wake up earlier HAHAHAHA

in preparation for a lot of food they all left for the gym and i..
i swam

in my dreams
for the whole three hours or so....

 (am i starting to look like a pig?)

then yeah we took the train off for lunch ehehehe

to maki-san at cathay!
it's like subway in sushi/salad form - pick whatever you want in it
the price is okay... not very cheap but like it's not bad!
$6.90 for a little san and $9.90 for a mega san (sushi)
$6.90/$9.90/$11.90 SML accordingly (salad)
(and did i mention the fact that i worked there for a day hehehe)

they have like the cutest packaging and all that crap ehehhe
(no it's not crap but you get me right? it's just teenage language)

meet salad

yummm hehhehe
tbh i can only say that after salad sauce
and on the topic of salad sauce pick yuzu sesame hehehehe
it's like
sesame and magic
TOGETHER

 

 i thought thumbs up meant yummy sushi but..
turns out... never mind

TADA

 dorothy's, mine and my sister's...
dorothy's was like a mega-san and yum it tasted more sushi-like than mine/my sister's lol
mine was so crunchy cus i had mushroom tempura and bacon bits in it
but my sister's... was pure weirdness

 da place

 and we got free fried calamari cus we're such good customers
 HAHAHAHAHHA
(nah you know loyalty stamp program)

 

 jordan gordon levitt? is that even his name?

we then walked all the way to erm
middle road
for BEANCURD TARTS!!

 welcome to middle road

only to learn about this upon arrival...

SERIOUSLY

SERIOUSLY

SERIOUSLY????

it's okay you're in singapore egg tarts are like everywhere

 so like 5 metres later..

 portugese egg tarts hehehe


and beancurd yum!!!

then we went to la selle (what a plot twist hehe)

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

 omg look there that guy with the weird hair he is... he is..

waaah what a nice campus

then if i stopped here why did i call my post a food hunt

WHY WOULD I DO THAT?

OF COURSE WE LEFT TO EAT MORE FOOD!!

 just kidding..
after that we decided to go shopping nearby at bugis
but we ended up only eating

 suan pan zi (abacus)
so yummy omg
omg
so yummy

 then being slightly adventurous we decided to go far far away (okay jk just a train station away with like a 45 min walk) to visit a church uncle's fruit shop...

resisting buying chocolate...

resisting temptation unlike oscar wilde...

and then getting lost with no choice but to call somebody on the whereabouts of the shop..

only to learn that it was closed by the time we arrived...

 .....
:(
nice interior though hehehe
never mind!

 tired and dissatisfied we left for dessert somewhere in citylink called honeymoon desserts?!?!?!

 sago something..

and sago mango yam  something..

 

and finally after that decided to have dinner...

 pepper lunch! fried rice!

 no we didn't have nam nam

thanks for spending your time with us
now have a good day